My story
Saturday, September 30, 2006
happy birthday to charlie!
i bet he wun read my blog.
but i just want to blog it out to wish him.
all the best in whatever you do!
take care.
and see ya soon!
right after your A level!
i start to miss the times when we were working together.
haix.
i am finally back at home.
i din want to come home at first.
i dun know why.
the feeling is what i cannot explain.
so dun ask me.
went to meet up with kai feng, charlie and jun xiang ( charlie's friends) first.
then we proceed to sumo house.
yanyin joined us too.
enjoyed the dinner.
but we cant get contact with jasmine.
so we were thinking maybe she went steamboat with her track and field friends.
her handphone was off, and she is not at home.
after dinner,
we went to jubilee.
then we went pool-ing.
two tables.
i left at around 10.20pm.
i went off to meet pei ying and hailing.
and i dun know i am ther efor what.
they were eating dinner,
and they asked me go there to see them eat?
feel like a fool there.
and i dun see the point of me being there
see them eating?
screw.
i left k-pool just to watch you two eating?
I DUN GET THE BLOODY POINT!
SCREW UP!
fine.
and they finished their dinner.
peiying asked me to send hailing to the bus stop.
and this,
I STILL DUN GET THE BLOODY POINT!
i went to see you eating and sending you off to the bus stop.
i feel like a fool there!
i dun get it!
finally,
the damn bus came.
hailing wen to airport to fectch her bf.
so left pei ying and me.
so being kind,
i asked whether pei ying need me to send her home.
is 11 plus.
so i dun really that mind to send her home actually.
i sent her home.
on the way,
she knew i am angry about asking me to watch them eat and blah blah blah.
i din said is her fault.
but haix..
i dun know how to say.
forget it.
so after sending pei ying home,
i called jasmine again.
she called back
saying sorry about the dinenr and blah blah blah.
and we hang up.
so i called yanyin.
asking where are they now.
they still at k-pool.
so i went back k-pool.
they were about to leave.
they wer estanding outside the lift.
but yanyin is still playing with her primary school friends.
our birthday boy was worried about her.
cause is going to 12am.
so me,
being kind again ( i din want to go home),
i went back to k-pool and look for yanyin.
i sat there with her.
she asked me to go home first.
but i din want to go home!
i stayed with her until 12am.
i sent her till mrt station.
but at that time,
i still thinking whether i should go home anot.
i walked VERY slowly.
and i mean VERY SLOWLY.
if you know me well,
you should know how fast i walk.
called jasmine on the way again.
but her hp is off.
too bad.
intend to ask her out.
but i think she cant lah.
so msg daphne instead.
but her reply is so slow!
and finally,
i reached home.
with my sucky feeling.
i still come home!
i dun know.
the feeling is so sucky
screw.....................
jiaxuan came home later then me.
she asked me what happen.
i dun know how to explain.
so i just tel her:
' i din want to come home in the first place!'
she got a shock!
but still,
i am back.
-roars-
finally,
hailing's bf is back.
no more meeting with you.
i dun jump to conclusion.
i walked there.
thanks for the 3 weeks.
is like back to those days.
i enjoyed it.
the days without him.
i really enjoyed it.
cause your mind wun be full of him.
joking
though arguements and disagreement were there,
but i hope it wun affect us further.
as our gaps are already wide enough for the earth to fit in.
a big 'thank you' to you.
when our back is facing one another, the space is an earth.
my life will be back to normal from today.
meeting up with pei ying, yanyin, jasmine and kellyn.
plus my darlings and classmates.
meeting pei ying on sunday evening.
movie with friends on monday.
east coast trip on tuesday.
chinese gardan trip on wednesday * not confirm yet*
rotting at home on thursday most prob*
lantern festival at bishan park on friday/thursday *maybe*
ROTTING AGAIN on saturaday!
my whole week is full.
with my friends again.
finally,
is back to normal.
and i can start to help them plan for chalet.
since i am so free.
only on chalet itself.
i am sub-committee.
not the overall!
worthless.
everything is worthless!
nothing worth!
see my post.
a post without laughter.
weird?
yes, to me.
but what is laughter?
worthless too.
so how happy can i be in a day?
i began to miss mum.
though she always scold me,
but i miss her now.
i dun know why.
dead.
i haven been seeing her for months!
yes! is months!
oh my!
and the last msg to her is on teachers' day.
if i din remember wrongly!
oh no!
how useless am i!
oh oh.
i am worthless.
but bet she is busy with my work too,
no use going back to sec school and disturb her.
unless got sjab.
and we got yanyin mdm now!
so worthless!
-roars-
i am worthless.
sorry mum.
msg you tml!
is a saturaday!
enjoy.
ok then.
i bet i cant sleep tonight.
online-ing the whole night!
and i bet my mummy will scold like siao!
got to go.
bye
o f f . .
This is end of me, stranger
