My story
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
is 15th of the month again.
memories are back.
sad or happy?
sad about the past.
happy for current.
haha.
:)
reading all the posts for the past two years.
every emotion are there.
haha.
is fun doing so.
reading posts that i argued with beiying.
screw up with the excos,
arguement between councillors,
meeting and arguements with sjab members,
arguement with friends,
how i studied for my prelims,
and my actual o's,
how many people actually help me in studies,
problem-solving etc.
having those wonderful times when i still in sec sch,
thanks everyone for contributing to my memories.
as well as for those to contribute sadness in my life,
thanks too.
cause without you,
i wun be able to grow up,
and face the reality.
*will meet up twice a week: you said to me*
but now,
we hardly meet up once for a month.
no more topic to chat.
you lead your own life.
take care.
papaya:
about yesterday.
i am not angry.
i am just sad.
perhaps because i am feeling down.
dun listen to what yanyin said lah.
will explain more when i see you again or later ba.
haha.
i am surrounded by sadness now.
since yesterday until now.
i have no mood nor concentration to study!
oh god.
exams coming in two days time.
and i am still slacking!
who can save me?
only myself.
i want to MIA for a period of time from this world.
but i know i cant.
perhaps i will try it when i am having my holiday.
as for now,
exams are coming.
is useless for me to MIA.
yesterday.
i just feel so stress.
between friends, studies as well as my friend's problems!
haix.
having so many things inside my mind,
the feeling isn't good.
just like something is priceless,
and something can never be solve?
once it kept there,
is locked there.
i know studies is more important than anything else for now.
but i cant concentrate for studies.
haha.
i dun know what is wrong with me!
haix.
i really dun know.
* is true you makes me sad yesterday.
perhaps is like what you said, is your words that cause everything.
i dun like your attitdue.
sorry but i just dun like.
again,
i think is just a replacement of friends.
just as simple as that.
there are too many arguement between us nowadays.
is more on my fault.
but you already got my promise to you,
i wun leave. but i think you will leave me.
anyway,
thanks for contributing in my life.*
like i said:
*i rather not having any close friend than leaving me one by one.*
perhaps if you left one day,
i wun be so disappointed.
perhaps buddies and sisters stay there forever!
haha.
a big big hug to them
they are there whenever i need them!
and i will always be there for you guys whenever you need me too!
i promise!
shall end my post.
i have to study!
again,
for the sake of mum!
i promised her i will study hard.
and i will do it!
i never want to break my promise!
oh ya!
thanks mum!
a BIGGEST HUG to you!
see ya soon.
take care of your eyes ok?
muacks!!!!
o f f . .
This is end of me, stranger
