My story
Saturday, April 30, 2005
ya
finally finish my two lang paper le
and history too
haha
guess i have fail my history ba
haix
sorry mum!
here goes my blue chocolate too
bye chocolate
haix
finally noe who the PERSON liao
who cause this prob out
who cause us like that
but thanks to her
i have the courage to break off with her too
haix
coz in the first place i dun even have the energy
to say everything out ba
thanks to that preson lor
to let me noe how she treat me
rather like a transparent
than a friend!
really
i am really very disspointed in you
but nth can change the fact now
heck
since i already break off with u le
haha
i feel relieve again!
nt as stress as i m still with you as friend sia!
yes!
haha
though i sound bad
but is the truth
i am suffering when i am still UNDER you!
but now
i am like enjoying my freedom!
haha
i rox!
though to you
i sux!
great
heck!
there is a different between section head and a vice head
dun ever tell me that there isn't
haha
great!
which oso cause us like tat
agree?
ya
though in the first you tell me we will be beta?
everythg is gone
even friendship are oso leaving us right now
wat the shit?
fuck off!
tink i m gonna fail my math too
i just cant remember the formula!
haix
why my brain dun work?
haix
my brain has stop working!
great!
but i tink is time for it to rest
aft my history paper!
haha
so that it has less prob to stress abt!
great too!
haha
more space to remember my formula!
haha
still must add in my social studies,phy,chem,math
great!
stress too!
haix
i have a small brain!
ya!
hehe
off to bath
and meet hailing to study math!
great
i miss hailing
though i saw her in a few hrs ago!
i going crazy!
hailing is old pig!
haha
lol!
This is end of me, stranger
Friday, April 29, 2005
hehe
back from mac to study
haha
saw hailing the pig there
haha
and alison and shu fen too
haha
studing chinese together
haha
den duno wat happen hailing see some1
den become very shy
haha
later she still say she like the balloon
so we get it for her
but in the end
i think alison took it back
haha
damn funny
off to study chinese
and my chocolate again!
yesh!
bye
gd luck for tml chinese paper!
This is end of me, stranger
just back from my math remedial
from ms teo :)
keep on saying that i'm weird
am i really weird?
great
must go ask my mum liao
btw,
mum keep stop saying that i am weird
and i m a spoilt kid?
lol
haha
having my history paper just nw
so stress
though the question i do b4
but i tink i will still fail
haix
coz i haven do finish yet!
sorry mum!
here goes my chocolate
but i did my best liao
haix
here goes my mum hope from me again!
great :(
but if i pass my history
thanks mum!
coz i study history for the sake of you!
haha
just hope that at least i will pass math ba
coz ms teo say math very hard leh
must put in more effort in math liao
if nt sure die de
haha
cannot faill in history and math
coz ms teo say
thoes who are gd in math are weak in history and ss
but gd in ss n history are weak in math
so i cannot fail math n history!
den which do i belong to?
haha
sound lame!
all ms teo thinking only!
haha
but she is a patience teacher
coz i duno how to do damn alot of question from the paper!
haha
she must be having a headache teaching me ba
haha
thanks ms teo!
haha
btw
where is the chocolate that you owe me for passing my math mock paper?
haha
nvm
shall take it from my mum
haha
great
coz i only like the blue chocolate that mum ask her boyfriend,my future dad,to buy it
haha
sound messy rite?
and that's my mum
lasy mum!
haha
she is always so lazy
haha
but still my mum sia
haha
great
off to bath
if not ah po gonna bomb my hp!
off to my chocolate too!
nice chocolate
thanks mum!
haha
This is end of me, stranger
Thursday, April 28, 2005
ESPECIALLY TO MS KEE BEI YING OF CLASS 4E4:
I'M SORRY IF THE WORDS MAKE YOU CRAZY
NOW THE PROBLEM DOES NOT LIE ON ME
YA YOU ARE RIGHT
WHY SHOULD I BOTHER RIGHT?
I AM JUST A KPO TO YOU
I'M SORRY
I SUX
AND I KNOW IT
GO AHEAD AND HATE ME IF YOU WANT
THINK I CARE?
FAT HOPE!
SINCE WE CANNOT BECOME FRIENDS
SO LET JUST DON'T CARE ABOUT ONE ANOTHER
SO WHAT TO YOU RIGHT?]
CAUSE YOU ALREADY DON'T CARE!
SO PLEASE CONTINUE TO ENJOY YOUR NORMAL STUDENT LIFE BA
HAHA
THINK WHAT?
I KNOW YOU ONLY CARE ABOUT JOAN!
SO WHAT OUR FRIENDSHIP IS DROPPING RIGHT?
SO?
HAHA
LET IT DROP AND I WILL NEVER PICK IT UP AGAIN!
YOU THINK I CARE ABOUT OUR FRIENDSHIP?
HAHA
JOKE!
THINK WHAT?
FUCK OFF!
AND I NEVER EVER WANT TO SEE YOU WITHIN MY SIGHT
FUCKER!
HAHA
I FINISH WHAT I WANT TO SAY LIAO
I GONNA BREAK OFF THIS FRIENDSHIP WITH YOU
AND NOT TO HOLD ON
I HATE THIS FEELING
SO WHAT RIGHT?
HAHA
HOLDING ON TO THIS FRIENDSHIP IS SO XIN GU!
AND I LOOK LIKE A FOOL SIA!
I HATE EVERYTHING INCLUDING THIS FRIENDSHIP BETWEEEN YOU AND ME
GET LOST!
AND GET OUT OF MY WORLD!
FUCK OFF!
TO BASIL TAN WEEKIAT:
HAHA
I HAVE SAY I WHAT I THINK AND FEEL LIAO
I GONNA GIVE UP!
YA
SO WHAT IF I STILL HOLD ON?
NOTHING CAN CHANGE THE FACT!
YA
YOU ARE WRONG
HAHA
I AM NOT GONNA CHERISH THE FRIENDSHIP AFTER TODAY
AND PLEASE NOTE THAT I HAVE ONLY WRITTEN THIS BLOG AFTER READING HER BLOG
THINK WORX, BASIL!
GO READ HER BLOG
AND YOU WILL UNERSTAND WHY I WRITE UNTIL LIKE THIS!
TO FRIENDS WHO KNOW THIS:
YOU GUYS SHOULD KNOW HOW SHE TREAT ME AND
I KNOW YOU GUYS WILL SUPPORT ME RIGHT?
CAUSE YOU GUYS KNEW THIS DAY WILL COME DE
YA
SO WHAT IF I BREAK OFF THIS FRIENDSHIP WITH HER?
I WOULD NOT AFFECT OTHERS THINKING TOWARD HER
HAHA
I ROX!
THINK I CARE
I DON'T WANT TO BE A KPO AGAIN
HAHA
I SUX AND I KNOW THAT
HAHA
SO WHAT!
YA.
This is end of me, stranger
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
back from ah buay there
haix
still abit sad
ah buay is sad too
saw him crying to himself
but we din say anythg to him
is time to let him relieve his sadness
ah buay
go ahead and cry ba
i dun feel like going to sch
sch sux!
though i will miss my friends there
but i still dun like to go sch
perhaps no1 likes to go sch?
lolx
haha
sch to me is a sad place
fuck!
got alot of stress and prob!
great too
haix
by going sch only coz me headache
though i am a sjab
so?
i cant even cure myself
great!
i want to die!
let me die pls!
thanks!
perhaps yan yin can try asking alex to fight with me
and i will die in no time
great rite!
haha
why some people wants to die but they wun die?
and some who wants to live die too early?
does it mean that people who dun wan to die must say they want to die!
haha
lol!
crap lah
great
fuck!
got back my history result
though is not very high
but i still pass
haha
so happy
and other thg which makes me so happy is
MY MATH MOCK TEST!
haha
i just pass on the dot!
thanks to ms teo n ms koh!
yesh!
i make it
though i tot i will fail
haha
great!
:)
mummy tan FINALLY pass me the blue chocolate!
yesh!
my future daddy bought de
but that is what she say
haha
give my mum 1 of the chocolate
coz she say she din try b4
haha
cute rite?
i dun treat the chocolate as my birthday present le
but i treat it as a gift from my mum for my history test!
so sweet of my mum
i love u,mum!
haha
lol!
mum pass me $25 for ah buay in the first place
but luckily i m a clever child
[though mum always say i m a spoilt kid]
i ask her to give $50 coz alot of teachers oso give $ 50
haha
must help my mum save her 'face' ma!
haha
i great!
haha
so in the end she gives $50!
haha
i m still a spoilt kid,mum!
haha
but i m nt a young adult!
dun say i m one
haha
i am still expecting my mum to drive me hm one day!
i m still a small kid!
haha
lol!
enough of my crap le
very tired
nowadays lack of alot of slp sia!
haix
the chocolate shd be ready by now!
bye guys
off for my chocolate!
thanks mum and future daddy!
haha
This is end of me, stranger
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
everyday got meeting
so sian
haix
but today different
dun have bei ying around
but heard yong hua she at the canteen
so i turned and saw her :)
but she is with lydia
and doesn't seem that she care
aft meeting
den went to hall
saw her sitting in the gallary
with her class
so sad
so during assemble
i went to the gallary
to look for her
but she dun care like tat
den how
nth to say
and stone there
great!
:(
fuck!
aft phy lesson
went to look for sim with eoin
but
it doesn't help too
he tell us to drag bei ying to the meeting
dun left her out
but prob lied on her
there is nth we can do!
why thg become like this?
why?
wat happen?
i still duno!
no one noes abt it
well..great too!
fuck!
went online tok to her
but still no reply
stone aga!
great!
ben ask me abt beiying
and is so shameful that i dun even noe ANYTHING!
great!
i'm useless
i did nth to help u
prerhaps ben is right
u r angry with me?
i tink that person is me rite?
if yes,
can any 1 come and tell me?
thanks!
today got math mock paper!
great
gonna fail with flyinf colours aga with my history!
yesh!
actually still got social studies test
but in the end
mdm chg din come to the class
great!
postone the test aga!
haha
study so hard for nth!
fuck!
haix
trying to change my blog skin since just nw
but cant leh
even the com is against me!
great izit?
stupid!
dumb!
enough of my rubbish le
to beiying
-i will not wear my badge until the day u come back!-
and i will continue to break my badge if i receive the extra 1 from sim!
pls come back
watch over donovan
u want him to promote
u urself give up half way!
wat the fuck!
sound stupid rite?
yesh!
tml maybe getting back my history paper
haha
sure fail de
if i fail aga
i am gonna give up on history too!
great!
haha
-we were born to succeed, not to fail-
make sense?
haha
yesh!
live strong!
bei ying come back
and just get it over with just a few mths
ok?
soon we will step down
pls!
just a few more mths!
we can make it de
come back
pls!
i begging u
pls!
This is end of me, stranger
Monday, April 25, 2005
i'm tired
reach hm around 1.30am
slp at 2am
lack of slp
enough of all the shock
still trying hard to recover from my shock
have been crying for a long time
because of ah buay dad
and partly is because of u
ah buay,
dun tink too much le
must take care of ur own health 1st
ok?
u still need to support the family
ur mum needs u the most now
u are the eldest
must noe how to take care of ur bro n sis le
ok?
dun worry abt the future prob
any thg can come to me
call me if u need help
i am willing to help
i bet the rest will help u too
ok?
must learn to be strong le
jia you!
we will support u all the way!
jia you!
u can make it de
alot of thg happened
hailing hp lost,
ah buay dad like tat
feel that any thg can happen in
1sec
1min
1hr
thinking through alot of thgs yesterday and today
life is short
cherish watever u have now
dun give up
dun let go
dun lose it
dun ever start to cherish when u noe that u are gonna to lose it
anythg can happen
especially to those with heck care attitude!
u will regret
trust me
cherish every
sec
mins
hrs
days
years u have now
really
i'm nt joking
coz u will never noe wat is gonna happen next
xuann pass me a 'live strong' band
but i bet i wun live for long
haha
great!
have less prob and stress
great!
haha
bei,
why din u call me?
why
i just wan to now wat is going on now
and nt like now
i dun even noe wat happen
can?
i just wan to noe
perhaps i might just go away any time
u will be able to see me for the rest of ur life
life is short
really
prehaps the next min i might just died coz of asthma
no 1 will noe
tell me can?
i start to cherish u now
coz i dun wan to cherish u when i lose it
though i have lose it once
u will never noe wat will happen next
give me a chance and tell me can?
-waiting-
at least give me a call
can?
coz i really duno wat to do now
missing in somewhere in my world
save me
and only u can save me
ok?
take care
i need to noe
to those who u tink i am toking rubbish:
is the truth
cherish watever u have now
this is all i can say
This is end of me, stranger
Friday, April 22, 2005
today sux!
today sux!
today sux!
why must i be so KPO?
why?
who can tell me why?
is not my fault!
why am i so KPO?
why must i help u solve the problem?
why must i get myself involve?
why?
big fuck!
sorry for making you cry again.
i'm useless!
i cant even help u solve a simple problem!
i'm useless
i have no intention to make you cry
i'm useless
but i need to noe everything before i can help u solve problem!
i'm useless
perhaps to you
i am just a kpo.
i'm useless
i'm really sorry
i'm useless
and i noe that.
seeing you crying and i did nth but throw temper at you
i'm useless
i dun mean it
i am just too stress
and now i dun think i fit to be an EXCO
i'm useless
perhaps to you
i am just a trouble-maker
instead of helping you guys,i myself are creating problems
i'm useless
i am just trying to help you to solve prob
i'm useless
i shall not interfer too much the next time
i'm useless
today speech day sux!
to all the SC:
pls dun ever do all the stupid stuffs
and cheat the teacher
ur action is stupid
and will only cause troub to u
dun ever argue with the teacher
if u are in the wrong
u should noe who r u
i dun wan to mention it aga
and btw
ur stupid action is shameful to all the SC
we already found out the truth
so u beta be careful!
fuck it
to all the sjab student helpers:
hey, you guys did a great job!
although i noe is very tiring
but u guys did a great job!
keep it up!
we rox!
i bet this is the last time
i'm doing the speech day duty
haha
great!
- you were never satisfied
- no matter how i tried
-now you wanna say goodbye to me
This is end of me, stranger
today simply sux!
today really sux!
i hate today!
so much things to do!
i hate it!
FnN & social studies test!
haven finish studying yet!
not enough time!
i need more time please!
sure fail in social studies de!
i'm die!
-pulling my ears again-
sorry hailing!
social studies are so hard, you noe?
gonna fail ss with flying colours aga!
tml is our class presenting the assemble program le
after sch still got speech day!
wow!
tml so busy!
haix
abt speech day
damn alot of misunderstanding going around beiying ,gerald and aslinda!
haix
heck!i dun wan to be involve!
sorry to say so
but i tink is the two vice-heads wrong lor!
coz my opinion is sch function is under gerald
so why not let him be the one in charge?
give some confident in him lah!
is not that he cannot do it well!
gerald,jia you!
you still have a long way to go!
wondering tml have to stay until wat time sia!
sure very late de
have to help out aft sjab duty
wat sia!
nvm lah
juz help out lor
haha
sianz!
i m so tired!
having fever yesterday!
fuck!
&#&^#$&&$%&%#
i hate everyday life!
&#%&*#^$%@
gonna learn social studies le
^&*$^#@$#%$^
off
-lost in my own world-
This is end of me, stranger
Thursday, April 21, 2005
halo everyone
espeacially to you[you should noe who r u]
haha
my asst deputy!
coz promise her to write abt my canteen department.
rite?
abt my canteen department!
actually to me
the duty seem sux
coz i dun see the prefects doing duty!
btw to all the 1st recess prefects
dun ever think that there is no EXCOs members to seee your duty!
we do have eyes and ears all around canteen!
dun tink u can ever run away from ME!
the 2nd recess
SUX!
*to all prefects!
i know some of you got complain abt us,the EXCOs members!
pls come to me and tell me!
anythg u are unhappy at,
pls tell us!
if u dun wan to say,write to us!
pls!
i begging u guys!
if u dun wan to say out nor write to us,
u left with no choice but to suffer all the way!
come to us!
any problems or who need help,
come to me!
i very free de!
feel free to call me!
but dun prank call me lor!
i will hate u and make you suffer even more!
haha
but i am serious lah!
-back to canteen stuff!-
these few days juz went through the canteen stuffs lah
not i slack worx!
haha
but i doesn't see any improvement in both 1st and 2nd recess lor!
why ar?ask deputy?
haix.no point forcing my deputy and my asst deputy!
coz their SA1 oso coming le
should let them rest/take a break le.
i shall try to ask mr sim tml during the meeting to let you guys have a break le.
i know u guys are tired!
me too!
haha
so i know how u guys feel!
ok lah.
nowadays always went to mac with hailing and jasmine to study!
so tired!
but muz think of O level le
cannot play le
muz be serious!
sian!
haiz.
heard alot of thg abt HER!
quite sad but still cant say out
juz have to keep in the bottom of my heart!
why am i always the last to know?
what change us to become like tat?
tell me!i dun wan like tat!
i hate life which is like tat
i really hate it!
coz i duno how to react when my friends tok abt my another friends!
i duno
i confused!
do u know how i feel in the first place?
where am i between your friends?
where?
somewhere u would never notice?
or i dun stand in the circle of your friends?
why are u treating me like this?
i hate it!
friends?
i feel like i am a fool!
a BIG FOOL!
almost every day i had been listening to 'tong hua'
which makes me think of you of your birthday!
-crying out loud-
while in prefect
still feel like another fool
being a fool is fun?
-wondering why dun you be one-
other than sad
is still sad!
nth can describe my feeling now.
nt even words
-thinking of you-
hailing dar dar,
if u saw this blog
i'm sorry for nt going to study today with u guys!
-pulling my ears-
sorry!
staring at the doll which kellyn,ah buay,alene,yi hao bought for me as birthday present
'you are wonderful'
i sux!
i sux!
i sux!
i dun even have any feelings to make me feel wonderful
and now is only sad.
beiying
sad to say
we are still drifting apart!
disagreement make us now!
i hate it too!
but i really cherish this friendship between u and me!
really
perhaps now in ur mind is still joan ba
never mind.i am always the 'spare' friend to u
used to it le
-leaf departure is because of the wind pursuit OR the tree did not ask it to stay?-
i am the tree
you are the leaf
to me
is the tree did not ask the leaf to stay
is my fault!
i did not ask u to stay nor i did not ask u to leave
my fault?
perhaps!i sux!
sad to say that
if u ever saw this blog
pls come back to me as the old beiying and NOT the new beiying
u have change
i miss the old u
i hate the new u.
but i know is immpossible to have u back as the old 1.
coz the leaf have departure from the tree for 1 whole year!
leaf would not come back!
but i will stay until the day that u come back!
i shall wait!
-missing you-
and stop treating me like a fool
though i dun really mind for you to treat me like a fool
but only you can!not others!
-lost in my own world-
This is end of me, stranger
